Ceuti67's Blog

In the intricate tapestry of life, there are moments when we are called to trust in a higher plan, to surrender our desires to the will of God. For me, this journey has been a tumultuous one, marked by moments of doubt, fear, and ultimately, a deepening faith.

Growing up in a family deeply rooted in faith, I was taught from a young age to trust in God’s plan. Yet, as I navigated the complexities of adulthood, this trust was often tested. There were times when I questioned the fairness of the challenges placed before me, times when I struggled to see the purpose behind the pain.

One of the most profound moments of this struggle came when I faced a series of setbacks in my career. Despite my best efforts, doors seemed to close at every turn, leaving me feeling lost and disillusioned. In those dark moments, it was hard to see how this could possibly be part of God’s plan for me.

Yet, as time passed and wounds/disappointments began to heal, I started to see the beauty in the brokenness. I realized that those setbacks had led me down a path I never would have chosen for myself, but one that ultimately brought me to where I am today. It was a humbling reminder that God’s ways are not our ways, and that His plan is often far greater than anything we could imagine.

Isaiah 55:8-9 during this time was a portion of scripture that kept coming to mind:

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

This realization did not come easily, and it required me to actively choose trust over doubt, faith over fear. It meant surrendering my need for control and embracing the uncertainty of the future. It meant learning to find peace in the midst of chaos, knowing that God’s plan is always unfolding, even when we cannot see it. And as I write these words, I would be insincere if I didn’t say “this is hard”. Being a person that wants to believe I’m in control and I’m taking care of my own life – genuinely surrendering and allow myself to “wait” on HIM is and was hard. However, it has always been HIS will and plan that was far better than mine.

Today, as I look back on my journey, I am grateful for the struggles that led me here. They have shaped me in ways I never could have anticipated, teaching me resilience, perseverance, and above all, trust. Trust in a God who sees the bigger picture, who knows the desires of our hearts, and who is always guiding us towards our true purpose.

So, if you too find yourself struggling to trust in the will of God, know that you are not alone. It is a journey we all must take, a journey of surrender and faith. But in the end, it is a journey that leads us to a deeper understanding of ourselves and of the incredible love that God has for each and every one of us.